Working Out: Emotional Confusion

So, yeah...I started working out again this past week.  I have realized that the only way that I am going to be able to stay committed to working out is to go all out.  What's odd is the way that I came to this realization:  I have been in a funk for the better part of the past week.  I couldn't, for the life of me, figure out why in the hell I was feeling so down.  I started putting it together after I had worked out last night after work.  I had been starting slowly and letting my muscles get reacquainted with weight training.  I hadn't added cardio into the mix quite yet.  When I got home from from the gym last night, I was almost instantly grumpy and withdrawn.

And then it clicked.

I wasn't fully committing to working out and I wasn't kicking the endorphins into high enough gear for the 'feel-good' to affect me.  I thought about it a lot.  I felt good while I was working out but it immediately started to fade as soon as I was done.  It kept on leaving the gym feeling faintly dissatisfied.  I knew that you had to attain a certain level of physical activity for the endorphin release to sustain itself for any length of time.  With this in mind, I decided it was time to throw in a half-hour of cardio today. My body felt good and I wasn't sore, so I figured I might as well.

So today, I got out of work, headed to the gym, did 30 minutes of cardio and then weight training.  My hunch appears to be correct.  When I finished my workout, the good mood was still there and I felt good.  I still felt a little out of balance after a week of 'I feel good, I feel like crap'.  I liked the way I felt today.  I was more aware and focused at home.  I wasn't withdrawing from my wife and daughter.

So let this be a lesson to everyone else out there:  When your doc says you need to exercise, take it seriously.  I feel so much better when I am working out.  I am more alert, more engaged.  *so tired - going to bed and finishing tomorrow...*

Ok, to finish up:

The word of caution I have for all of the others out there that are feeling balanced on their medication:  Exercise releases a lot of chemicals into the brain that cause feelings of happiness and contentedness.  It might be a good idea to pay a little closer attention to your mood while you are getting into the habit of exercising consistently.  Any time you drastically change your brain chemistry, it can change the potency, duration, and effect of the medications we are on.  Please don't take this as an excuse to avoid exercising.  Trust me when I say that the difference is wonderful.  Just don't do it half-way.  You'll thank me later.