Yet another day and more frustration and anger. People have a tendency to try to push the boundaries of what is acceptable and what is not. They just push, push, push...
So I pushed back. I didn't do anything violent. I didn't verbally abuse anyone. I just let people know, unequivocally, what I expected of them. I think I need to do that more often. Things went very smoothly after. The real problem: I couldn't let the frustration go. I care too much. It makes me anxious as hell. I have already been down this road. The anxiety and the PTSD continually push me toward the cycle I was in all last year: gear up for work, exhaust myself, come home useless. It pushes and pushes...and shoves. So I push back with all my might. I will not let this happen again. I will continue to take my medication, I will continue to do things with my family, I will never stop blogging, and I will learn how to cope by attending CPT. Next week is going to be a rough one for me. It always is. July 30th is the big anniversary. The one that feeds my nightmares the most. I have yet to make it through this without the PTSD shoving me squarely on my ass. But I will push back. Hard. And maybe this year, I will maintain my balance.
DAVID SYCKELMOORE (UKVAL)
7/22/2012 09:09:33 pm
Stick with it pal expressing yourself in the right place is good, its cathartic , dont let those that dont get it make you angry its just ignorance and lack of understanding on there part , there go they but for the grace of god ...and who knows they may still cop it. Comments are closed.
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