Staying Positive and Focusing On What Matters: Family

First, I wanted to thank everyone for their warm wishes and prayers.  It's no small thing to have the amazing support from all of you.  When health problems seem to just keep on piling up,  it is pretty easy to get depressed without even realizing it.  Even now, when I seem to be coming out on the other side in better health, staying positive can be difficult.  You get so used to something else going wrong or finding out that there is another health issue that you weren't aware of and it sets you back again.  I didn't even realize until yesterday that the reason that I was feeling anxious about the surgery was because it is the last medical problem on the very long list from the past few months.  The surgery is the light at the end of the tunnel and I am afraid of cloud cover.

I thought about it and recognized that I am actually very confident that the surgery will not only go well, but be resoundingly successful.  What I am actually stressed out about is what comes after:  I don't know.  Am I actually going to be fairly healthy?  Is that even possible?  Since when did the prospect of being healthy cause me anxiety?  I caught myself thinking, "If my health is getting better and better, what else is going to go wrong?"

Two weeks goes by in a flash when you have a toddler.  I just want to get through the surgery and come out the other side.  In the meantime, I am going to focus on my daughter who adds new words to her vocabulary practically every day now.  She is an absolute delight to play with and spend time with.  I saw the allergist yesterday as well and she said my lungs were doing really well.  Time to put them to the test.  My wife and I bought a child seat for the back of my bike.  Time to get outside, enjoy the amazing weather and forget about life for a while.  I am going to revel in the simple act of loving my wife and daughter.  Who knows?  Maybe I'll even forget about my problems for a little while.