Sometimes Victory is Just Getting Through the Day

7/20/2012

I had to go to work early this morning and I still had last night on my mind. I knew that today was going to be a day I just had to get through. And I did. I had to fight the depression, the lethargy. I knew that the changes that returning to work would bring had the potential to put a serious strain on my coping mechanisms.

I had been hoping to have the time to catch up on all that has changed at work. No such luck. The basic business strategy has changed and it is a challenge to keep everyone on point. I also have the challenge of learning to relate to everyone at work again. While most have forgotten what it is like to have me around, some seem to have forgotten that I was out of work at all. The learning curve has been intense.

I knew that the change of returning to work would be difficult. The anxiety and anger have been difficult to keep in check at times. When it gets tough, I think about my family. It helps tremendously. Spending time with my wife and daughter, blogging and advocating for local veterans help me remain positive and leave me feeling fulfilled. I don't know where I would be without my friends and family. I know for certain that I wouldn't be sitting here writing this.

So...Here's to Victory.

Jackson

7/21/2012 04:46:01 am

I just stumbled upon this blog and it has been amazingly supportive. I am a veteran with a lot of time spent in both theaters. I was not in the infantry or anything so I have really struggled coming to terms with my PTSD and or admitting I needed help because of a fear that is still here that people will not believe me. Anyway all that to say July is an exceptionally hard month for me and so to read this post today was good because this weekend is a weekend where I just have to get through. I have a great support system now in place and have some additional medications to help get through this "crisis" this weekend. It is hard to remember that being victorious some days really does mean just getting through the day. It can be hard because other people don't get it and I know that I wish I didn't have these issues and could be "normal" like everyone else. Thank you for sharing your experiences, it is giving some new found hope to me.

Max Harris link

7/22/2012 02:17:50 pm

Sorry it took me so long to write back. I am glad that you find my blogging helpful to you in your situation. I completely understand where you are coming from, but I feel the need to tell you one thing: Other people may not understand what you are going through, but they can understand and empathize with the emotions you are feeling. It sounds like you have a great support system and for that I am glad. Don't hesitate to let me know if you ever have a question.

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