Sometimes I Need To Remember This: It's Not Her Fault

8/28/2012

A while back I wrote a post called It's Not Her Fault. To this day it is still one of the most talked about posts I have made. It resonated with a lot of people. Yet despite all of this, I seem to be forgetting a lot of these pearls of wisdom myself.

I need to focus more on making sure my wife knows I love her, no matter how horrible I am feeling. I need to make sure that my daughter understands that daddy always loves her, even when it is hard for him to show it.

Life doesn't pause to let you catch your breath. There is always something happening that will have the potential to change your life. I know this, but I can't seem to beat it into my thick skull. I have started down the path I was treading before - getting revved up for work, making it through the day, and then gassing out when I get home. I can't live like this and I won't.

My wife has said it very succinctly: Parents never get a day off. Yet with my PTSD not being under control right now, she is left caring for our daughter, more or less, alone. How can I expect to rebuild a strong relationship with my wife when I keep on letting her down, disappointing her?

Dee Bowren link

8/28/2012 09:30:50 am

I'm sure she realizes that you are doing the best you can.Since I have never experienced this, I'm certainly not an authority, but you can only do the best you can.My grandson has this also,and all I can do is pray for you both and I am doing that.Take care and don't give up, it will get better.

Max Harris link

8/28/2012 10:38:18 am

Thanks, Dee. I value the support. Your grandson is lucky to have you!

Eileen link

8/29/2012 05:14:36 am

I am sure your wife knows how much you care about your family and how much of a struggle it is for you. She will be glad to have you home It isn't easy..never will be...war changes us....all of us..the soldier..the wife..the husband..the parent the friend and glad she still has a husband and a father for your children. It isn't a change we want but it does affect us all. PTSD is a horrible bedfellow......but try to be open and honest...not to lash out on the bad days, have quality times on the good days....don't alienated those who love you ..keep them close..let them help.......converse openly and honestly..the more they understand..the better they can support....good luck to you x

8/29/2012 10:17:47 am

Eileen, Thank you for your kind words. I do try to do that, but sometimes I distance myself before I even realize I am doing it. It's frustrating, but it is what it is. I will be sure to keep you all posted as the days roll by.

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