Whenever a big change happens in my life, I can feel the anxiety start to ratchet up a notch or ten. It's not that I am nervous about the change, it's that my head starts processing all of the things I need to tie up loose ends and I think about all of the things that I am going to want to do to get down to the nitty gritty as soon as I get into whatever it is I am getting into. In this case, I am taking up a new position at work. I have always pressured myself to drill down into the knowledge I need to know to be successful in any given position and until I have successfully done that, I will be anxious that I haven't learned fast enough. Reminding myself that not learning fast enough won't get anyone killed doesn't seem to have much of an impact. I wish I knew what did.
As I continue my life with PTSD, I will share my challenges and discoveries on this blog.