I pulled a really long day at work and had to call my wife to let her know that I wasn't going to be able to watch Caley tonight when she went to work. It sucked. This kind of thing doesn't happen very often at work, but it still made me really angry that I was missing out on bonding time with my daughter. I have had a lot of late shifts recently and because of that, I haven't spent much time with Caley in the past week. I didn't realize that not spending that time with her would have such a significant impact on my emotional stability. I almost broke down and cried after I got off the phone with my wife. I was able to calm down but it made the rest of the day that much harder to get through. I now feel like I need to go hide somewhere so that my daughter doesn't have to see me this way. It shows on my face. How do you deal with that?
As I continue my life with PTSD, I will share my challenges and discoveries on this blog.