Nightmares Gave Me A Laser Focus on Living Life Well:

Well, that was an unexpected turn.  A few days after the horrible nightmare I had last week, I suddenly found myself motivated to examine how I had been living my life.  It wasn't pretty.  I wasn't doing everything I know I am able to be.  I wasn't being a partner to my wife, I wasn't pulling my weight at home.  I was anxiety eating myself into diabetic shock, slowly gaining weight, pound by pound.

It hit me that I now have a consistent work schedule where I am home for dinner almost every night.  I could actually go to the gym regularly as well.  I actually sat down and made a commitment to my wife to be a better man and husband.  For the first time in a long time and I am feeling a little more like 'myself'.

It didn't hit me until a few days ago that I was feeling this motivation, this change in outlook because of that horrible nightmare.  I'm not sure how or why this is true, I just know it is.  It's like there's one less shackle weighing down my soul.

All of the things I accomplished this week just added intensity to the brightness of the light in my heart.  The 501(c)3 formation documents are officially submitted to the IRS.  One logo is done, one done soon, and one in the works.  I was asked to be the keynote speaker at Veterans' Day events in my home town.  I confirmed my speaking engagement at St. Francis University.  Combat Vets' Google Plus Page was listed as one of the "99 Google Plus Accounts Military Service-Members Should Follow".

Despite all of this, I am deeply anxious that the other shoe is going to drop.  It tempers my happiness and dulls my optimism.  At least this time, it