New Challenges...Much Like the Old Ones.

Here's the thing:  with all of changes that I have to make in my life to put my sleep back in balance, life is presenting a lot of new challenges...and lots of uncertainty.  What if work will not accommodate my need for a set schedule?  Why can't I seem to get to bed at a reasonable time?  Why is it still so hard for me to get up and get active?

What if?  Why?  How?

I asked myself these questions a lot yesterday and tried to come to terms with all of the things that are going to need to change in order for my life to center itself.  I got up, went about getting new sneakers and then went running in the afternoon heat.  It felt amazing.  Things fell apart as the day wore on.  I ate dinner and had planned to sit down and work on making some changes to one of the websites.  Well, that didn't happen and as the evening wore on, I lost track of time and that I intended to go to sleep at 10PM.  1230AM rolled around and I felt like an idiot.  Talk about being frustrated with myself.  If I can't get to bed at a reasonable hour, then I can't regulate my sleep and catch up on the huge deficit I already have.

So, just like the old challenges, I pick myself up today, dust myself off, and try again.  Today, I am going to work on the website and blog entries in the morning, clean the apartment and go for a run in the afternoon, and take some free time in the evening.  That's the goal.  Now I just need to push forward and make sure that I meet those goals.

So, yeah.  The challenges are new but the approach to overcoming them is the same.  Grit and determination.  Intestinal fortitude.  Finding ways to keep myself motivated.  All of these things are not new to me - just the problem to overcome.  The important thing for me to remember is that I have never given up in the past and I won't now.  I have past successes and failures to teach me what I need to do to move forward.

Because Every Day is a New Day.