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I am a naturally driven person. Driven to succeed, driven to be the best husband and father in the world, driven to be the best employee, manager, and leader...Whatever I set my mind to, I am driven to be the best at it. Needless to say, this has caused me no end to stress and anxiety in recent years. I don't have the energy to be everything to everyone else and to myself. I invariably burn out and shut down, closing myself off from success at work and shutting out my family emotionally.
I can't accept this as normal, as the status quo. I am aware that I push myself too hard, but that is my nature, down to the very core of my identity since I was young. How do you change something that ingrained? This question continues to hound me as I encounter even more change in my life that is upsetting the fragile balance that always seems to be just out of reach... I need to think about this some more. I am going to talk to my wife and spend time with my daughter. I would love to hear from any of you out there reading this, too. CPT is helping but if I don't get this underlying drive under control, I will only be able to get so far... 8/27/2012 01:59:12 am
It's inside us to succeed no matter how the deck is stacked. In my own case, I have been promoted within my organization, been successful; and have asked to be placed back in my original position on 3 separate occassions turning a successful position over to someone else. I feel like I just need to get back to the basics without the major crash that usually follows and begin the process over again - very strange indeed. Ground yourself, put the proper priorities back on the things most important, and begin anew. Good luck brother, we may have PTSD, it doesn't have us though.
Dad
8/27/2012 11:15:51 pm
How does one become "the best husband and father in the world, the best employee, manager, and leader"? Put the needs of others ahead of your own. Hope that helps. Comments are closed.
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