I have been working on learning to separate what PTSD contributes to the anger I feel. It has been difficult. When I feel angry, my first instinct has been to shut it down completely. Recently, I have been exploring what it means to feel angry for the right reasons. Sometimes justifiable anger is warranted. My belief is that the only way to conquer the hold that PTSD has over your emotions is to explore all of them, good and bad. It's the only way that you can ever hope to reacquaint yourself with what it feels like to have a full range of healthy emotions. So far, I haven't had a whole lot of success, but I challenge myself every day. I want to know that I am in the driver's seat. I will not let the PTSD rule my life if I have anything I can do about it!
As I continue my life with PTSD, I will share my challenges and discoveries on this blog.