Intensity Turned Inward: A Journey of Self-Discovery

I was talking with Rod Deaton on Friday and we had a very constructive chat.  He mentioned to me an idea he wanted me to consider.  As he was telling me about it, I recalled that he had mentioned this very idea to me the last time we talked.  For a second I grew frustrated and then it hit me - I had heard him last time, but it didn't register on a deeper level.  This time around, as his words rolled over me, I felt light-headed.  I had to sit down on the bed.  What he asked me to consider was that my incredible intensity that had kept me alive was also a major part of the problem I was having right now.  As he described what he meant, I felt his words resonate with me, down to the core.  I felt like a bell that had been rung too hard.  My nerves in my skin felt like they were crawling.  Rod, in a few carefully chosen phrases and words, had gotten to the very heart of matters.  I am still working through the things that we talked about but it explains a lot.  I ask that you all read his latest blog entry and think about what he says very carefully.  I am going to take the night to sit back and reflect.  Who knows.  Maybe tomorrow I will be able to flesh out the frame that Rod Deaton has so thoughtfully put down in words:

Rod Deaton's Blog Entry: Combat Vet Seeking Outlet, References Available upon Request