My therapist proposed a change in venue for this week's meeting. I was circumspect at first but when I arrived at the entrance to the park and we started walking, I felt a sense of urgency and took off up the path, looking at everything around me. My mind let go and I was able to just focus on the trail and all of the intentionally undisturbed nature surrounding me. When we got to the boulder outcropping, I felt a desire to take pictures. It was beautiful out there and I very quickly grew angry at the pothead scum who had defaced the outcropping with their stoner messages. When I climbed to the top of the boulders, the anger melted away. The light was playing on the ground in the most calming and mesmerizing fashion. I just stood there for a while. On our way back, I stopped and took more photos of nature. It felt almost compulsive. Something happened out there and it was a really good thing. I felt spiritually alive. I had forgotten how much nature heals. The life around me resonated with my shattered soul and finally felt at peace. Needless to say, I will be going back there - often. During this whole session, my therapist and I didn't talk about anything. I think she sensed that I needed this moment of peace undisturbed - especially after the ten year anniversary that just passed. Thank you Soldiers Project for finding such amazing volunteer therapists!
There is something so peaceful about being surrounded by trees and just the sound of birds. (Although I see water and that sound over rocks is an added bonus). It's almost magical, like being a kid again, when you believe anything is possible. 8/5/2013 12:20:20 pm
I had forgotten. For the longest time, I didn't want to have anything to do with nature. I wonder if I just had to be ready, spiritually, for it. 8/11/2013 03:20:22 pm
I live in an apartment complex, in a metro area. Too much noise and no back yard. That's why I love this park.
Anji W.
8/10/2013 02:18:16 pm
Carl Jung talks about the Universal Consciousness and how we are all interconnected. He also, along with many others, speaks of how we are connected to nature and all living things around us. Somehow many of us have forgotten that we are connected to to everything around us, even me. I love your pictures. They remind me of the area I recently moved to. I rediscovered hiking and for the first time in years the stress of living has eased. I have also found that sharing my discoveries with my kids has been a wonderful bonding experience. Hopefully you will be able to do this with your family as well. 8/11/2013 03:22:34 pm
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