OK, a few months back, I made a concerted effort to get into the gym for cardio and weight training as often as I could with my work schedule. Due to the limited hours at the gym I was attending, that happened to be once, maybe twice, per week I was able to get there. I had read a lot about how everyone was saying how much exercise improves your mood and can help to stabilize your mood.
Hmm. What I discovered was something very different. When you are only able to go to the gym once per week, your mood is a little better that day. The other six days, you feel worse. I don't think I was necessarily feeling more depressed. I think it was because I had gotten a taste of what a good mood feels like and my body was seriously pissed that I wasn't feeding the hunger. It made me very frustrated and exceptionally demoralized. I thought about the trade-off. Was one day of a better mood worth six days of 'meh'?
Um...No. It sure as hell wasn't and it made me feel trapped in a body I hated to see in the mirror. I didn't feel like there was anything I could do to make a real difference, what with my retail work hours and such. Well, early last month, I had finally had enough. I started looking for ways that I could work out consistently and maintain a better mood. It was not an easy thing to do. I felt myself getting more and more impatient and frustrated as the days passed and I wasn't able to find any kind of workable solution.
Then, over this past weekend, it finally hit me: I need a gym that's open 24/7. After a little bit of digging on the internet, I found a gym that fit the bill. I visited the gym on Saturday and loved it. I signed up the same day. I know I feel better about myself when I don't see a fat guy staring back at me in the mirror. I am dedicated to this. I have already been exercising and it has improved my mood a bit. It also helps that I can work my exercising in wherever it happens to fit into my schedule on any given day.
It's been incredibly empowering and I just started. I am having fun and, for the first time in a long time, I feel like there's still a chance to get thin and happy again. I just need to make sure that I send the warning out there to all my fellow community members - If you can't exercise on a regular basis, things could get worse, and quickly. Please make sure you've talked to your doc about this concern. If you are prone to severe depression, please think this through and make sure you are committed to improving your mood. After feeling my mood get progressively worse with sporadic training, I know from first hand experience how negatively it can affect you.
So here goes nothing. I hope this word of warning gets to the people that need to hear it the most. Get up, exercise and take very careful stock of of how you are feeling. If it is affecting you, don't let your motivation stagnate. Caregivers, talk to your vets about their mood and find out how they are doing. Communication is key. It may seem counter-intuitive at first, but trust your instincts and your vet's gut. You know as well as I do how low our self-worth can be. Throw the listlessness of the medications we take and it can be very easy to convince ourselves it's not worth the effort. So...Support your veteran and do what you can to keep them motivated. I know it's not easy, but the rewards are worth the risk if you can help them get in shape.
Good luck out there and happy lifting!!
As I continue my life with PTSD, I will share my challenges and discoveries on this blog.