Anxiety and Nightmares Ratcheted Up A Notch Last Night

Yesterday was a really good day.  Dani and I were so tired that we went to bed early.  I was awake and out of bed less than three hours later.  The nightmares made a very strong visit.  I was concerned that this may happen with the surgery coming up in a few days.  I was up for about an hour and a half before Dani came out and ordered me to come back to bed.  I am glad she did, but I woke up still agitated and irritable. I think Dani recognized the signs of me needing a day for me and took Caley for a walk.  It's raining out so I am sure they went for a walk at the mall or somewhere else far away.  

This anxiety is killing me right now.  The surgery is two days away and the only thing I can think about is that they are going to have to put me under local anesthetic on Thursday.  The thought of that is freaking me out.  It is the ultimate in not having control over your body or faculties.  The concept is freaking me out a whole lot more than I thought it would.  I need this surgery.  I don't have a choice but to get this done.  I just need to find a way to calm myself down so that I am not spending the next two days wound tighter than a spring.